I recently found a note that was written to me a long time ago. Here’s an excerpt: “I was raised to be strong, to take care of myself and not rely on anyone’s help. I have taken great pride in my strength and in my ability to take care of myself and not need anybody else. When anxiety and depression began to overwhelm me, I tried to pull myself together, and found that I could not do it alone—I needed help. In that moment, I realized that I had lost the two things most important to me: my pride and my independence. Without them, I was destitute, but I was right where God wanted me!”
It seems odd to imagine that God would want us in a place of destitution; despairing and powerless over whatever our situation is. But destitution makes us totally reliant on Him, and that is what our Creator wants of us—to know that He is with us, that we can trust Him and therefore need not be afraid.
Oswald Chambers wrote, “The greatest blessing spiritually is the knowledge that we are destitute; until we get there Our Lord is powerless. He can do nothing for us if we think we are sufficient of ourselves; we have to enter into His Kingdom through the door of destitution. As long as we are rich, possessed of anything in the way of pride or independence, God cannot do anything for us. It is only when we get hungry spiritually that we receive the Holy Spirit.” Self-sufficiency prevents us from receiving the comfort, peace, and strength that He wants us to have.
I learned a lot from the woman who wrote me that note. I am thankful for her and what she shared with me. But most of all, I am thankful that our God will not abandon us in our destitution. When we turn our wills and our lives over to Him, He will do infinitely more for us than we could ask or imagine!
“He regards the prayer of the destitute and does not despise their prayer.” Psalm 102:17
The Rev. Carol Brooks
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